an empty cage that has no key



have you ever felt like all people are against you? yes, even your friends -- especially your friends.

today i spent a few hours at the mall. all by myself. i desperately wanted to talk to someone, or to at least have somebody there to hold my hand. but i didn't know who to call. or maybe i did...but i know all too well that it wasn't a good idea. i didn't need someone to lecture me at that time. i just wanted some company. i felt so alone. and it was lonely. ugly.

before i knew it, tears started to fall from my eyes.

is it hardnosed to say that they don't understand me? probably. but that's what i feel. why do people make a living out of making claims? they can spend hours chatting about you, but can't have the audacity to talk to you -- THE ONE WHO IS DISTURBED -- even for just a minute.


today, more than ever, i feel that my life's measures are not for them to evaluate.


don't say that you understand. because you don't. you simply DON'T. it's a big picture to grasp in that little stern head of yours.


i would rather feel to much than nothing at all. yes, even the pain will be all worth it in the end.