cream puff



today i had the chance of chatting with a very good friend of mine. ok, so he was more than a friend. take note -- WAS.

we went back to memory lane. and doing so put a smile on my face.

despite the distance, he has this amazing ability to convey his message in a way that it is almost felt. the words on the messenger just come to life.

i was surprised that up do this date, he can still make me feel special. i almost forgot that at one point in my life, someone has made me feel that way. in the latter months, i had my energies focused on the fact that i am alone, single and unattached...and i've since felt less special and wanted.

i must admit that during those days that he was still wooing me, there was something magical between us. there was that tingling sensation...or simply what we call "kilig". :)

last year, he came home to Manila for a vacation. i passed up the opportunity of spending time with him. i don't know what went wrong..or how it all started, but before i knew it, the captivating feeling started to drift away. it's like sand in your hands...you try to grab as much as you could, but they'd just sift through.

he went back the US. months have gone by. i thought i lost him for good, and that the friendship has died.

slowly, we started communicating again. and the warmth of our friendship is felt more than ever.

as good friends, we've become comfortable with each other again and we can talk about anything. no inhibitions whatsoever. and so today he asked me if he has ever made me feel special. i answered with a solid yes. i wish i could do more than simply tell that to him. and i'm secretly hoping that somehow, i have also made him feel equally special...or at least, a fraction of that sentiment.