it was never really about me


i gotta have to stop worrying about other people too much. half the time i am blaming myself that i haven't done all i could as a friend. it makes me guilty. even if i don't have anything to do with their misfortunes, i start to think that i am partly at fault. i let the stupid idea nibble at the edges of my mind.

this is crazy. i can only do so much to help them. Martyr must have been my middle name in my past life.

i can be sickeningly optimistic and be a worry wart at the same time. a dichotomy of sorts.



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after posting the entry above, i looked at the date.
friday the 13th pala ngayon.

let's see if something freaky happens today :P



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