beclouded


life is never what it seems

flimsy promises
only empty and fleeting words

how do you redeem the faith that's been lost perpetually?
look at what's left of me
it leaves me broken and deceived

just when i thought i have buried everything in my past
without warning
memories keep flooding back
and slowly i crawl into my dark space again

it's senseless to keep risking and fighting
when there's nothing left to lose or gain

in my mind i'm struggling
but in my heart i'm struggling more

-f-r-a-g-m-e-n-t-s-
ver. 3



there comes a time in my life when i withhold to do something because i am almost sure that i am bound to get hurt. but i still end up taking the risk. i do it because i am also certain that it's gonna hurt more to know and look back that it could have been my greatest happiness.


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with everything i've been through, i've learned that love -- and life -- has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get; only with what you are expecting to give --which can be EVERYTHING.


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there's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or how not to cry too hard.


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i tend to step in too close that the whole perspective is but a blur already...


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the poem i wrote, by the way, wasn't about you. i didn't even realize that it might sound like it was when i wrote it. it was about someone else. this boy. but it's inconsequential now, because he's just a poem to me now.

nothing more.


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her motto was, "let go."
his was, "hold on."
it was as if she was ready to fall and he was willing to catch her.


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it sucks, but that's life. it hurts to let go of something but always rememeber may kapalit yan na mas ok. :)
-->texted to me by a dear friend

SALAM


happy birthday to my dearest best friend.

bes, it is important to me that you know how special you are. i've never met anyone bolder, braver, funnier and with a more unique name than you. :) God only knows what you've been through and i am happy that you had managed to come through. when you were thinking of giving up, the thought of losing you really scared me to death. i never want to see you doubting your strength again.

thank you for being the brutally honest yet sensitive best friend to me. i wouldn't have learned from my mistakes if you hadn't let me. now, i can say na "natuto na ko". *wink*

i pray that we would remain an open and unpretensious friendship. remember that you can always depend on me..and Him. :)

i love you bes and i miss you soooooooooo much. *bearhugs*