Mr. Right Now

 
"you are everything a man wants, remember that."


*senti mode on*


so tell me, why am i alone?  you keep telling me that i should wait for the right one. but there seems to be absolutely no right person for me. is it really time for me to make the move? is patience indeed a virtue in this scenario?

i used to be a staunch believer in soul mates, destiny, true love and all that shit. but as much as i want to believe in the magic of it all and leave it to cupid's hands, i still think that i would have something to do on my part to find him..or at least, to be found by him. minsan parang ang sarap maglakad na may nakatatak sa noo mo na "single and available". pero nde ko pa naman naggawa yun... :P

there are many Mr. Right Now's in this world. pair that with a Meantime Girl and we have a perfect temporary pair. a relationship undefined. baseless. empty. ephemeral. pointless.

can i just meet Mr. Right Now fall in love with him, and take  out the "Now" in that title? nah. but sometimes it can be really tempting to do that. yes, there are times when being stupid makes sense. sardonically true.

i met Mr. Right. yes, he was Mr. Right and Perfect alright, but he was Mr. Right for someone else, not for me. and although he appreciates all the love i could share with him at that time...that was all he could do -- appreciate. although love was a two way thing for us, we still would have never gone forward even in our wildest dreams.

there is no point in staying in a relationship whose heart you cannot keep. even if we were two halves who match perfectly when put together, there is no adhesive strong enough to make us glued together for good. love should be just like breathing when it's right. maybe that's why i almost felt suffocated (literally) everytime i cried about you.

i really have nothing against you, but i know that i deserve to be happy. worry free happy. if only we could have it our way...

you will never know how it feels to be the girl in love with you. it's a feeling that's  exclusively mine.


"you are everything a man wants, remember that."  -- now if someone would say this to me again, i now have a reply: "then men probably don't want everything in a woman." 

eh nde rn naman ako perfect ah! ampotah...


*senti mode off*