i guess there's no use hiding. no matter what i do or where i go, i will still be found.

so i might as well post this:

_perfectly tarnished_

that's my new cyber turf.

i am now putting an EOL to this blog.

i'm surely gonna miss posting on this site.

Adios!

:)

|| dreariness: tantrum without energy ||


despite being on sugar high, i can still:

1) fall asleep (oh my friends from AP can attest to this. kahit nasa gimikan, nakakatulog ako), and

2) feel low spirited (some people can effortless ruin your mood)


...and both happened to me yesterday.

i don't know which is worse -- starting the day with someone frustrating you or ending the day with someone hurting you.

either way, your entire day is wasted.

|| -f-r-a-g-m-e-n-t-s- ||
ver. 5



you've gotten your big dream. now what?
-- you dream for something bigger.


>><<
i am constantly humming that strange harmony of being content with what i have and still wanting to achieve something grander.


>><<
sometimes i find the greatest comfort in the unknown and unresolved.
no answers. no definitions. no details.
just a big WHY question left hanging...


>><<
and THIS brings out the best and worst in me.


>><<
the wonderful thing about making big mistakes is making great comebacks.


>><<
women were created for a lot of things -- supressing their emotions is not one of them.

|| while ||


three winks
breathless

an unforeseen awakening

silently stalking
tangible yet elusive

let me drown
in this moment so pure

unyielding
resonating

let me dance
to the music only i can hear

engaging
healing

obsession to what i can hold
just for now

until i lose it again
in three winks


-- jarjar.10.04.05 --

|| ...it was a different bug that bit me ||


i was THIS close to deleting my entire blog. i was waiting for the blog bug to bite me. and when it didn't, i thought maybe i should just say goodbye to blogging altogether.

but here i am again. :)

to everyone who's been asking, you don't have to worry -- i am doing ok great.

i have a couple of entries sitting in my draft box:
:: my birthday entry (a different kind of celebration)
:: my holiday entry (spending Christmas with him)
:: a poem (not about love)
:: a letter (to myself)

...all unfinished. and honestly, i think they will remain that way. i have no plans of finishing those entries.

a few months ago i answered a survey (taken from cher's friendster bulletin).
one of the questions was:
Are you in love at the moment?

and my answer was:
*** "in like"

now, allow me to answer the question again:

Are you in love at the moment?
*** in a heartbeat -- YES. :)



so yeah, the blog bug didn't bite me -- the love bug did.

and the journey continues...




may your new year's day happiness linger throughout the year.
have a spectacular 2006!