it's Jarjar's Day! =)
thank you Lord for another wonderful year.
(will blog more later...)
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Sunday, December 04, 2005
|| December is here ||
...and it's my favorite month.
my birth month...i'm one of those atypical people who have 2 birthdays. if you don't know my birthday story, that means were not that close :P
holiday month... just like last year, i am looking forward to the holidays. i no longer experience that dreaded feeling approaching christmas. yey!
pensive month... don't we all become contemplative during this time of the year? we start having those moments -- pondering about this year's past.
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no, i will not be throwing a party on my birthday. and PLEASE don't ask what's wrong -- because nothing is wrong. i just don't feel like throwing a party this year. what i really want to do is go on a solitary journey. i just want to leave the city for a while. it'salmost absolutely impossible to take a long vacation from work at this time, so i'd have to postpone my travel plans indefinitely.
thing is, whenever someone learns that i want to travel, that person usually asks if he could come along. waaaah! solitary journey nga eh!!!
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i miss
...getting a 13th month bonus. *sigh*
...organizing (or simply participating in) kris kringles.
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my EDL 261 professor finally showed up in class 2 weeks ago. and because she's 2 meetings behind (that's 6 hours wasted!), she scheduled our oral reports immediately. mine was last week. so there. i'm done with my report. one requirement down, about 6 more to go! (and that's only for this subject) come january, we'll be doing in service training in public schools. and we're not just going to teach, we'll be supervising. lupet!:D
our professor is really taking the word "supervision" in our course title seriously! hehe. but she's nice and really approachable. i think her only flaw is that she's not exactly good with names...and faces? she has mistaken me twice for another student who is a flight attendant. *shakes head*
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what i'm loving now...
music of:
:: death cab for cutie
:: imogen heap (you hafta listen to "hide and seek"! it's one of the most hypnotic
songs i've ever heard!
:: kings of convenience
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that's my adorable inaanak Ada in the picture above. manang mana sa mga ninang at mommy nya. starbucks baby! :) Master, bka may sarili din syang starbucks planner? hehe...
seeing her picture made me smile today. yeah, this blog entry is inspired by her.:) feel good blog entry. hihi.
*lotsa kisses to ada* :)
...and it's my favorite month.
my birth month...i'm one of those atypical people who have 2 birthdays. if you don't know my birthday story, that means were not that close :P
holiday month... just like last year, i am looking forward to the holidays. i no longer experience that dreaded feeling approaching christmas. yey!
pensive month... don't we all become contemplative during this time of the year? we start having those moments -- pondering about this year's past.
>>><<<
no, i will not be throwing a party on my birthday. and PLEASE don't ask what's wrong -- because nothing is wrong. i just don't feel like throwing a party this year. what i really want to do is go on a solitary journey. i just want to leave the city for a while. it's
thing is, whenever someone learns that i want to travel, that person usually asks if he could come along. waaaah! solitary journey nga eh!!!
>>><<<
i miss
...getting a 13th month bonus. *sigh*
...organizing (or simply participating in) kris kringles.
>>><<<
my EDL 261 professor finally showed up in class 2 weeks ago. and because she's 2 meetings behind (that's 6 hours wasted!), she scheduled our oral reports immediately. mine was last week. so there. i'm done with my report. one requirement down, about 6 more to go! (and that's only for this subject) come january, we'll be doing in service training in public schools. and we're not just going to teach, we'll be supervising. lupet!:D
our professor is really taking the word "supervision" in our course title seriously! hehe. but she's nice and really approachable. i think her only flaw is that she's not exactly good with names...and faces? she has mistaken me twice for another student who is a flight attendant. *shakes head*
>>><<<
what i'm loving now...
music of:
:: death cab for cutie
:: imogen heap (you hafta listen to "hide and seek"! it's one of the most hypnotic
songs i've ever heard!
:: kings of convenience
>>><<<
that's my adorable inaanak Ada in the picture above. manang mana sa mga ninang at mommy nya. starbucks baby! :) Master, bka may sarili din syang starbucks planner? hehe...
seeing her picture made me smile today. yeah, this blog entry is inspired by her.:) feel good blog entry. hihi.
*lotsa kisses to ada* :)
Sunday, November 27, 2005
|| beyond kodak moments ||
i was reading Twin's blog and it made me contemplate on all of life's episodes i've had with my MM family.
i have said it before and i will say it again ---- i had the best years in MM. yes, i've cried a lot, but back then, i also found myself saying countless times, "this is the life -- IT IS wonderful".
all the joys and pains combined -- they were all worth it. looking back, i know that all of you will agree that we have all matured so much. SO. MUCH. even the littlest of things have contributed to making us stronger and undoubtedly wiser now.
i remember my first day in MM...tahimik pa ko nun. akala din nila tahimik nga ako (mali sila. maling mali sila!! :P). i never thought that Traning Day 1 would lead to a phenomenal 3-year journey.
it just gives me an overwhelming feeling when i think about everything we've overcome so far...
a lost love. a new found love. the death of a loved one. the birth of an angel. people leaving. people coming back. mourning. celebrating. loving. hating. loving and hating at the same time. forgiving. and still trying to forget. giving your all. being wisely selfish the next time. experiencing something honoring yet humbling. trusting. mistrusting. slowly learning to trust again. hurting yet still believing. moving on, and just taking baby steps. looking ahead but taking a glimpse or two of what's behind us.
we may not see each other everyday and not chat as often as we used to...but i know that we will always have each other. kahit saan pa tayo makarating. :)
from melrose place, i think we have evolved into being 7th heaven. :) anyone would kill to be a part of our family.
i miss you guys so much. senti mode nalang talaga...
i love love love you all! (((((hugs))))))
lagay tayong pictures for effect... :)
global picnic 04. Macromedia team: supportive fans of Nene and the Virgins band
easter eve drinking session. ayan puro tayo original macro peeps. walang newbies jan sa picture!
kahit pala noon pa may photo sessions na ang movie group :)
ang jeep. na tayo lang ang laman. :) sa la union nga pala yan. nagpunta tayong bayan kaya nag jeep (oo na oo na oo na explain nako.leche)
almost a year na pala since wedding nina jules and jo. sinong susunod na ikakasal sa tropa? o wag kayo saken tumingin...utang na loob :P hi master and mike! ;)
ang super bongggang party sa PICC. alala nyo yung Miss UN contest? haha! kulet eh. sinabi na kse carnival theme.
may uniform pala tayo nun sa sykes noh?
ano nga ba meron neto? ah wala lang. adik nga lang pala tayo sa pictures
o yan. tapos na ko umiyak...
i was reading Twin's blog and it made me contemplate on all of life's episodes i've had with my MM family.
i have said it before and i will say it again ---- i had the best years in MM. yes, i've cried a lot, but back then, i also found myself saying countless times, "this is the life -- IT IS wonderful".
all the joys and pains combined -- they were all worth it. looking back, i know that all of you will agree that we have all matured so much. SO. MUCH. even the littlest of things have contributed to making us stronger and undoubtedly wiser now.
i remember my first day in MM...tahimik pa ko nun. akala din nila tahimik nga ako (mali sila. maling mali sila!! :P). i never thought that Traning Day 1 would lead to a phenomenal 3-year journey.
it just gives me an overwhelming feeling when i think about everything we've overcome so far...
a lost love. a new found love. the death of a loved one. the birth of an angel. people leaving. people coming back. mourning. celebrating. loving. hating. loving and hating at the same time. forgiving. and still trying to forget. giving your all. being wisely selfish the next time. experiencing something honoring yet humbling. trusting. mistrusting. slowly learning to trust again. hurting yet still believing. moving on, and just taking baby steps. looking ahead but taking a glimpse or two of what's behind us.
we may not see each other everyday and not chat as often as we used to...but i know that we will always have each other. kahit saan pa tayo makarating. :)
from melrose place, i think we have evolved into being 7th heaven. :) anyone would kill to be a part of our family.
i miss you guys so much. senti mode nalang talaga...
i love love love you all! (((((hugs))))))
lagay tayong pictures for effect... :)
global picnic 04. Macromedia team: supportive fans of Nene and the Virgins band
easter eve drinking session. ayan puro tayo original macro peeps. walang newbies jan sa picture!
kahit pala noon pa may photo sessions na ang movie group :)
ang jeep. na tayo lang ang laman. :) sa la union nga pala yan. nagpunta tayong bayan kaya nag jeep (oo na oo na oo na explain nako.leche)
almost a year na pala since wedding nina jules and jo. sinong susunod na ikakasal sa tropa? o wag kayo saken tumingin...utang na loob :P hi master and mike! ;)
ang super bongggang party sa PICC. alala nyo yung Miss UN contest? haha! kulet eh. sinabi na kse carnival theme.
may uniform pala tayo nun sa sykes noh?
ano nga ba meron neto? ah wala lang. adik nga lang pala tayo sa pictures
o yan. tapos na ko umiyak...
Monday, November 21, 2005
|| pronounced ||
mind over heart. but in truth, you sometimes allow yourself to lead with your heart.
only for a brief moment.
just enough for you to become barefaced of what you are and where you are at that point.
you'd be overcome by the soft but undeniable beating sound that the heart makes. and when the inevitable sensation rises, it leaves you unfastened.
this is when confusion becomes something familiar to you. a clarity of the unknown. when you accept that instability of making decisions is a process you'd have to go through over and over -- and that there is no getting used to it.
it's that one all-encompassing second that makes you smile with ache.
mind over heart. but in truth, you sometimes allow yourself to lead with your heart.
only for a brief moment.
just enough for you to become barefaced of what you are and where you are at that point.
you'd be overcome by the soft but undeniable beating sound that the heart makes. and when the inevitable sensation rises, it leaves you unfastened.
this is when confusion becomes something familiar to you. a clarity of the unknown. when you accept that instability of making decisions is a process you'd have to go through over and over -- and that there is no getting used to it.
it's that one all-encompassing second that makes you smile with ache.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
|| kibitz, kibitz ||
by now, you must have heard that i lost consciousness when i saw Constantine last week. hehe.
tama ba kseng dumaan sya sa harap ko. aaaaaaah!!! i literally could not speak when i saw him. and i was just one foot away from him!
oh well, i won't bore you with any more Constantine talk. basta, ok na ko. pwede nakong mamatay. :D
thanks Pims! :) next time ha magdala na tayo ng camera. :D
to everyone who had to listen to me talk about Constantine, thanks for bearing with me. promise, tapos na ko mangarap.
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for the first time in my MA program, i have a professor in UP that i truly admire. he's smart. he's witty. he's open minded. he really knows what he's talking about. he's refreshingly frank. and he's gay. i love him! :)
i don't know how he's gonna do it, but he has to handle our class which consists of....150 students! grabe noh. tinalo pa namen rizal high school. :D i hope he won't make us wear name tags. for a number of reasons i won't mention anymore, he had to merge 2 sections. thus, the big class was born.
on our second meeting last week, he started holding the big class in the college theater. it's the only "room" in the building that can accommodate all 150 of us. there was this girl who asked permission to go home early. she was having an asthma attack. the professor allowed her to go home. "ok, you may go home hija. i think we have to adjust the airconditioning. hmmm...anyone else here who has asthma?"
about 20 students raised their hands. :| that cracked us up. good luck nalang! i hope we're all still in the course by the end of the sem. we need more airconditioning units and must start requesting for nebulizers in class.
as for my other subject...hmmm... i have nothing much to say. our professor hasn't shown up in class. :D on the first week of school, she was in Laguna. and last week, she was in Bohol. i wonder where she's gonna be this week. she probably forgot to add UP Diliman campus in her itinerary. :P
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i finally got to watch 24 season 4! :D ganda talaga!
the show gets better every season!
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brrrrr!!! it's soooo cold at night and in the early morning!
it's really starting to feel like Christmas. :)
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enzo,
there are no words for how badly you are hurting right now. i cannot begin to imagine the pain you're going through. but i do know that you will rise above it all. like anything else, this too, shall pass.
please stay strong. i love you and i want to see you happy again.
by now, you must have heard that i lost consciousness when i saw Constantine last week. hehe.
tama ba kseng dumaan sya sa harap ko. aaaaaaah!!! i literally could not speak when i saw him. and i was just one foot away from him!
oh well, i won't bore you with any more Constantine talk. basta, ok na ko. pwede nakong mamatay. :D
thanks Pims! :) next time ha magdala na tayo ng camera. :D
to everyone who had to listen to me talk about Constantine, thanks for bearing with me. promise, tapos na ko mangarap.
>>><<<<
for the first time in my MA program, i have a professor in UP that i truly admire. he's smart. he's witty. he's open minded. he really knows what he's talking about. he's refreshingly frank. and he's gay. i love him! :)
i don't know how he's gonna do it, but he has to handle our class which consists of....150 students! grabe noh. tinalo pa namen rizal high school. :D i hope he won't make us wear name tags. for a number of reasons i won't mention anymore, he had to merge 2 sections. thus, the big class was born.
on our second meeting last week, he started holding the big class in the college theater. it's the only "room" in the building that can accommodate all 150 of us. there was this girl who asked permission to go home early. she was having an asthma attack. the professor allowed her to go home. "ok, you may go home hija. i think we have to adjust the airconditioning. hmmm...anyone else here who has asthma?"
about 20 students raised their hands. :| that cracked us up. good luck nalang! i hope we're all still in the course by the end of the sem. we need more airconditioning units and must start requesting for nebulizers in class.
as for my other subject...hmmm... i have nothing much to say. our professor hasn't shown up in class. :D on the first week of school, she was in Laguna. and last week, she was in Bohol. i wonder where she's gonna be this week. she probably forgot to add UP Diliman campus in her itinerary. :P
>>><<<<
i finally got to watch 24 season 4! :D ganda talaga!
the show gets better every season!
>>><<<<
brrrrr!!! it's soooo cold at night and in the early morning!
it's really starting to feel like Christmas. :)
>>><<<<
enzo,
there are no words for how badly you are hurting right now. i cannot begin to imagine the pain you're going through. but i do know that you will rise above it all. like anything else, this too, shall pass.
please stay strong. i love you and i want to see you happy again.
Monday, November 14, 2005
|| the 3 G's cycle ||
it always happens this way.
you feel depressed, you feel utterly sorry for yourself. all the world's miseries are on your shoulders. you attract all negative energies and you start whining.
then you see another person with a much more terrible state you're in.
suddenly, you feel ashamed of yourself. this line would come out of your mouth, "hey, i'm doing fine after all!"
in a twisted sense, seeing others who are doing worse than you actually helps you. it's a grief-then-guilt-then-gratitude process .
i usually feel this way. and most people i know feel this way.
until i came across this person who reacts quite differently. he looks at things the other way.
we were all telling him how wonderful his life is and how he is in a much better position than most people -- because he really is.
he keeps on shaking his head. he just wants to continue sulking and be left alone. the universe can be at its most oppressive state and he would still sit in his own little world minding his own sorrows.
well, to each his own right? the way he handles depression is not my business, really. he likes to feel that way. then let him be.
maybe i am just amazed at how differently he thinks and feels that the rest of us. no amount of other people's tragedies would affect him. his is a grief-then-gripe-then-grief-again kind of cycle.
if the grief-then-guilt-then-gratitude cycle doesn't work for him, then i don't know what will.
it always happens this way.
you feel depressed, you feel utterly sorry for yourself. all the world's miseries are on your shoulders. you attract all negative energies and you start whining.
then you see another person with a much more terrible state you're in.
suddenly, you feel ashamed of yourself. this line would come out of your mouth, "hey, i'm doing fine after all!"
in a twisted sense, seeing others who are doing worse than you actually helps you. it's a grief-then-guilt-then-gratitude process .
i usually feel this way. and most people i know feel this way.
until i came across this person who reacts quite differently. he looks at things the other way.
we were all telling him how wonderful his life is and how he is in a much better position than most people -- because he really is.
he keeps on shaking his head. he just wants to continue sulking and be left alone. the universe can be at its most oppressive state and he would still sit in his own little world minding his own sorrows.
well, to each his own right? the way he handles depression is not my business, really. he likes to feel that way. then let him be.
maybe i am just amazed at how differently he thinks and feels that the rest of us. no amount of other people's tragedies would affect him. his is a grief-then-gripe-then-grief-again kind of cycle.
if the grief-then-guilt-then-gratitude cycle doesn't work for him, then i don't know what will.
Friday, November 11, 2005
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
yesterday was enrollment day. one word: HELL
looong lines, sweat, heat, rude people, and hunger pangs. haaaay....what's new?
oh!!! but there's something different about yesterday's enrollment......
pink was everywhere! as in pink overload!!!
people (yes, "people" -- girls, boys, gays, lesbos) were wearing pink left and right! my friends and i were counting the people wearing pink and we lost count.
oh, and did i mention that my friends and i were all wearing pink too? hahaha!
i swear, nde kme nag usap usap! haha! nagulat ako eh! we also saw this girl who was covered in pink from head to toe! syeeet. galit sya sa pink? pati bag at sandals nya pink.
how many times did i use the word pink in this entry? :P
wala lang. overwhelming lang kase talaga eh.
amazing! :D
geeze...i can't believe i just blogged about that...hehe...
tama lang yan, nonsense post naman. lagi daw depressing mga entries ko eh.
>><<
i saw this bumper sticker on a van:
Lord, give me patience.
RIGHT NOW.
haha! parang, ano ba. prayer ko yata yan eh! :D kulang nalang lagyan sa
dulo --- a prayer from jarjar. mag isa kong tawa ng tawa habang nag d-drive kahapon! and yeah, i looked kinda stupid. :P but hey, that made me laugh and it absolutely put me in a good mood! :D
==
and my friend saw this statement at the back of a jeepney (ano nga ba tawag sa mga ganun sa jeep?):
Dreams comes true
wehehehe...:D
>><<
classes begin today!
bat ganon? eh registration week pa kaya! :|
di bale ok lang. miss ko na library eh. eeeewwww :P
looong lines, sweat, heat, rude people, and hunger pangs. haaaay....what's new?
oh!!! but there's something different about yesterday's enrollment......
pink was everywhere! as in pink overload!!!
people (yes, "people" -- girls, boys, gays, lesbos) were wearing pink left and right! my friends and i were counting the people wearing pink and we lost count.
oh, and did i mention that my friends and i were all wearing pink too? hahaha!
i swear, nde kme nag usap usap! haha! nagulat ako eh! we also saw this girl who was covered in pink from head to toe! syeeet. galit sya sa pink? pati bag at sandals nya pink.
how many times did i use the word pink in this entry? :P
wala lang. overwhelming lang kase talaga eh.
amazing! :D
geeze...i can't believe i just blogged about that...hehe...
tama lang yan, nonsense post naman. lagi daw depressing mga entries ko eh.
>><<
i saw this bumper sticker on a van:
Lord, give me patience.
RIGHT NOW.
haha! parang, ano ba. prayer ko yata yan eh! :D kulang nalang lagyan sa
dulo --- a prayer from jarjar. mag isa kong tawa ng tawa habang nag d-drive kahapon! and yeah, i looked kinda stupid. :P but hey, that made me laugh and it absolutely put me in a good mood! :D
==
and my friend saw this statement at the back of a jeepney (ano nga ba tawag sa mga ganun sa jeep?):
Dreams comes true
wehehehe...:D
>><<
classes begin today!
bat ganon? eh registration week pa kaya! :|
di bale ok lang. miss ko na library eh. eeeewwww :P
Thursday, November 03, 2005
|| faze ||
i am half part of the solution and half part of the problem.
i have the power to decide which one should outweigh the other. but it's not easy.
any decision you make that concerns a person's feelings is never easy.
i find myself looking at both sides with an equal amount of fear and sorrow.
this is the dark cloud that's been following me around...
i am half part of the solution and half part of the problem.
i have the power to decide which one should outweigh the other. but it's not easy.
any decision you make that concerns a person's feelings is never easy.
i find myself looking at both sides with an equal amount of fear and sorrow.
this is the dark cloud that's been following me around...
Monday, October 31, 2005
|| not again ||
it's the worst feeling when you are torn between keeping your distance or continuing to hang around with someone.
it doesn't help knowing that either way, whether you avoid him or not, there will be a heavy and distracting feeling inside you.
you need to stay away because things are getting too close for comfort, but then you don't want to, because you want to save the friendship.
if you've seen the movie "when harry met sally", that's exactly what's happening to me now...
...only with a different ending.
an ending which hasn't taken place yet.
haven't seen the film? read the script. :) go ahead! holiday (nyo) naman eh! you'll love the story, i promise.
haaayy...why do i always find myself in this kind of situation...?!?!?
it's the worst feeling when you are torn between keeping your distance or continuing to hang around with someone.
it doesn't help knowing that either way, whether you avoid him or not, there will be a heavy and distracting feeling inside you.
you need to stay away because things are getting too close for comfort, but then you don't want to, because you want to save the friendship.
if you've seen the movie "when harry met sally", that's exactly what's happening to me now...
...only with a different ending.
an ending which hasn't taken place yet.
haven't seen the film? read the script. :) go ahead! holiday (nyo) naman eh! you'll love the story, i promise.
haaayy...why do i always find myself in this kind of situation...?!?!?
Thursday, October 27, 2005
|| a lovely disarray ||
i woke up in the lush space where i don't remember what i've dreamed.
but after three seconds or so, it suddenly flashed back to me. and i start having pep talks to myself.
don't dwell on it. it's all in the past. it's time to move on.
but i still dwell on it and defer moving forward -- at least for a moment. a moment so valued and true. no matter how strongly aware i am of the present, i've always considered the past as something concrete. something very palpable.
in a peculiar way i must have loved my interesting anthology of hurts. they somehow provide me with some sincere sympathy and assurance, giving me that sense of being exceptional.
i am renewing yet again.
i am the girl wounded and healed several times over. getting hurt in ways no other person has ever been. my pain and griefs are my own.
what a complicated but marvelous case i am.
i woke up in the lush space where i don't remember what i've dreamed.
but after three seconds or so, it suddenly flashed back to me. and i start having pep talks to myself.
don't dwell on it. it's all in the past. it's time to move on.
but i still dwell on it and defer moving forward -- at least for a moment. a moment so valued and true. no matter how strongly aware i am of the present, i've always considered the past as something concrete. something very palpable.
in a peculiar way i must have loved my interesting anthology of hurts. they somehow provide me with some sincere sympathy and assurance, giving me that sense of being exceptional.
i am renewing yet again.
i am the girl wounded and healed several times over. getting hurt in ways no other person has ever been. my pain and griefs are my own.
what a complicated but marvelous case i am.
Sunday, October 23, 2005
|| delicate to handle ||
knowing the truth can be as much a protection as it can be a curse to your life.
there are times when you have to trade in a plate of lies for a plate of truth.
you don't know which one is heavier to lift. but it doesn't really matter. either one is heavy and fragile.
heavy and fragile. perfect burden.
the moment you find out the truth, you hear something so strong. like a heavy sigh.
a sound so final. no turning back.
the truth is yours now.
and it is hauntingly beautiful.
knowing the truth can be as much a protection as it can be a curse to your life.
there are times when you have to trade in a plate of lies for a plate of truth.
you don't know which one is heavier to lift. but it doesn't really matter. either one is heavy and fragile.
heavy and fragile. perfect burden.
the moment you find out the truth, you hear something so strong. like a heavy sigh.
a sound so final. no turning back.
the truth is yours now.
and it is hauntingly beautiful.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
|| bone tired and craving for a rest day ||
i am finally, finally, finally free of any connections to fitness first! only i can understand what a relief it has been! i cannot emphasize how happy i am. thanks Orange! :D
that friggin' freezing fee was the stupidest thing anyone could ever spend money on. now, i'm done with it. no more shadows of fitness first! well, except for the new backpack that Orange generously gave me. i kinda forced him to. hehe. thanks friend! i will keep that as a souvenir and as a reminder that once in my life, i believed i had the determination to work out. and it lasted for 4 months :P
Menggay, boxing na tayo! we'll enroll at that boxing gym with the cute owner. bwehehehe. motivated tayo nun!
i am experiencing the worst body clock ever. having to work at 3am is no joke, even if i'm just working from home. sometimes i'm drinking more coffee than usual. 2 cups in the morning, one at noon, and sometimes one in the evening if i feel like hanging out at a cafe. there are days/nights (depending on my body clock) when i drink coffee just minutes before going to sleep. :/ syet tamang adik eto.
like any other job, working from home has its pros and cons. i'm not that happy and i'm not complaining that much either. :) i just really miss the physical interaction with officemates. wholesome interaction po yan ha. ;)
will end this post now...
pero teka hihirit lang ako...i hate mmda!!!! $!*^@&%^!!!
yun lang.
love, nde ko matiis nde i-blog kahit one liner lang. buong weekend ko ren dinala yung poot eh :D thanks for accompanying me to their office yesterday. :)
i am finally, finally, finally free of any connections to fitness first! only i can understand what a relief it has been! i cannot emphasize how happy i am. thanks Orange! :D
that friggin' freezing fee was the stupidest thing anyone could ever spend money on. now, i'm done with it. no more shadows of fitness first! well, except for the new backpack that Orange generously gave me. i kinda forced him to. hehe. thanks friend! i will keep that as a souvenir and as a reminder that once in my life, i believed i had the determination to work out. and it lasted for 4 months :P
Menggay, boxing na tayo! we'll enroll at that boxing gym with the cute owner. bwehehehe. motivated tayo nun!
i am experiencing the worst body clock ever. having to work at 3am is no joke, even if i'm just working from home. sometimes i'm drinking more coffee than usual. 2 cups in the morning, one at noon, and sometimes one in the evening if i feel like hanging out at a cafe. there are days/nights (depending on my body clock) when i drink coffee just minutes before going to sleep. :/ syet tamang adik eto.
like any other job, working from home has its pros and cons. i'm not that happy and i'm not complaining that much either. :) i just really miss the physical interaction with officemates. wholesome interaction po yan ha. ;)
will end this post now...
pero teka hihirit lang ako...i hate mmda!!!! $!*^@&%^!!!
yun lang.
love, nde ko matiis nde i-blog kahit one liner lang. buong weekend ko ren dinala yung poot eh :D thanks for accompanying me to their office yesterday. :)
Friday, October 14, 2005
|| survey from cher's friendster bulletin ||
o minsan lang ako sipagin mag survey. this is what i do when i'm working overtime. hehe :D
==
Are you single, married, or taken?
*** wlang "it's complicated"? haha!
dati status ko taken.
taken for granted...
Are you in love at the moment?
*** "in like"
With?
*** :)
(duday nabitin ka ba? nde ko sinagot! haha!)
Have you ever had a bad relationship?
*** it was a pseudo relationship with a con artist. does that count?
How old were you when you started dating?
*** college na yata ako nun. late bloomer.
Are you unpredictable?
*** oh yes!
Do you like surprises?
*** i like making surprises for someone.
as for me getting surprised? yep. :D (hello macro peeps! naalala ko pa ren ung going away surprise inuman session you faciliated for me. i won't ever forget that. mwah!)
You think friends can become lovers?
*** anything's possible
You think lovers can become friends?
*** uhuh. after a while though...
Have you ever had an ex you wanted to kill?
*** nde naman. gsto ko lang sakalin.
How is she/he now?
*** probably married. but one thing's for sure, he has a kid already. (you should have figured out by now why we broke up)
What is your message for him/her?
*** wala. ay meron. bat ako nde kinuhang ninang ng anak nya? hahaha!
Have you ever been hurt?
*** who hasn't?
Have you ever hurt anyone?
*** sadly, yeah
Do you forgive and forget?
*** blogged about it before. forgive, oo. it's hard to forget even if i want to...
Is love lovelier the second time around?
*** am not sure. try naten ha? :P
Fling or long term relationships?
*** no comment
Are you easy to be loved?
*** maybe...
Are you a good friend?
*** ah eto alam ko. nde? haha!
oo naman po :)
Are you sociable?
*** definitely
Do you try to please everyone?
*** nope. manigas sila.
Do you want everyone to like you?
*** nah. you can't please everybody nga eh..
What's the shortest relationship you've been in?
*** 1 week (uy cher talo kita! haha)
What would you want to say to that special
person?
*** you have to thank me. i spared you from the hurt. seriously.
okay. back to work na ko!
o minsan lang ako sipagin mag survey. this is what i do when i'm working overtime. hehe :D
==
Are you single, married, or taken?
*** wlang "it's complicated"? haha!
dati status ko taken.
taken for granted...
Are you in love at the moment?
*** "in like"
With?
*** :)
(duday nabitin ka ba? nde ko sinagot! haha!)
Have you ever had a bad relationship?
*** it was a pseudo relationship with a con artist. does that count?
How old were you when you started dating?
*** college na yata ako nun. late bloomer.
Are you unpredictable?
*** oh yes!
Do you like surprises?
*** i like making surprises for someone.
as for me getting surprised? yep. :D (hello macro peeps! naalala ko pa ren ung going away surprise inuman session you faciliated for me. i won't ever forget that. mwah!)
You think friends can become lovers?
*** anything's possible
You think lovers can become friends?
*** uhuh. after a while though...
Have you ever had an ex you wanted to kill?
*** nde naman. gsto ko lang sakalin.
How is she/he now?
*** probably married. but one thing's for sure, he has a kid already. (you should have figured out by now why we broke up)
What is your message for him/her?
*** wala. ay meron. bat ako nde kinuhang ninang ng anak nya? hahaha!
Have you ever been hurt?
*** who hasn't?
Have you ever hurt anyone?
*** sadly, yeah
Do you forgive and forget?
*** blogged about it before. forgive, oo. it's hard to forget even if i want to...
Is love lovelier the second time around?
*** am not sure. try naten ha? :P
Fling or long term relationships?
*** no comment
Are you easy to be loved?
*** maybe...
Are you a good friend?
*** ah eto alam ko. nde? haha!
oo naman po :)
Are you sociable?
*** definitely
Do you try to please everyone?
*** nope. manigas sila.
Do you want everyone to like you?
*** nah. you can't please everybody nga eh..
What's the shortest relationship you've been in?
*** 1 week (uy cher talo kita! haha)
What would you want to say to that special
person?
*** you have to thank me. i spared you from the hurt. seriously.
okay. back to work na ko!
Thursday, October 13, 2005
|| feather touch ||
every time i watch you, my eyes are filled with tenderness and ache. and my heart is filled with excitement and fear.
all at the same time.
i keep wondering what it is that connects us.
breaks us. and reconnects us.
i long to touch you. to have my fingers stroke your skin. to lightly feel the vein with blood rushing through it. it seems only by touch that i could be sure that this is real...
...that you are real.
every time i watch you, my eyes are filled with tenderness and ache. and my heart is filled with excitement and fear.
all at the same time.
i keep wondering what it is that connects us.
breaks us. and reconnects us.
i long to touch you. to have my fingers stroke your skin. to lightly feel the vein with blood rushing through it. it seems only by touch that i could be sure that this is real...
...that you are real.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
now i can relax
well, kinda. i still have to work and render ot.
but but but....
sem break has officially begun. :D
i can now ditch my school books and resume reading novels. yey! :)
i'm gonna buy a copy of The House of Spirits by Chilean journalist/novelist Isabel Allende.
i've been hearing raves about the book. they say it's the most unexpected sensation since the emergence of Gabriel Garcia Marquez.
>><<
i'm paying a visit to the gym this week.
nooooo, i will not reactivate my membership. i'm transferring it to my friend. :D
i have given up fitness first (or any other gym) altogether. even a free membership will not appeal to me anymore. i am convinced that i am not a gym person. i'll do some other form of exercise instead. i'd rather walk or jog a thousand miles than work out at the gym. but i would want to try boxing. i tried kickboxing when i was in grade school and it was pretty good. boxing will not only help me stay fit (as if naman fit ako ngayon :P), it'll do wonders in releasing any rage i might have. so don't come near me if i'm angry aight?
>><<
i'm making one of my dreams come true today. i'll be heading to the fort after shift to try out cold rock ice cream. :D
>><<
i need help with my comments link. i used the same code and everything, and i even tried using the wizard in haloscan but it's still not working.
paging my personal blog TS people... twin? deej? mistress ice? anyone? *beautiful eyes*
>><<
hi love. ;)
i'll see you this week?
*kisses*
==
well, kinda. i still have to work and render ot.
but but but....
sem break has officially begun. :D
i can now ditch my school books and resume reading novels. yey! :)
i'm gonna buy a copy of The House of Spirits by Chilean journalist/novelist Isabel Allende.
i've been hearing raves about the book. they say it's the most unexpected sensation since the emergence of Gabriel Garcia Marquez.
>><<
i'm paying a visit to the gym this week.
nooooo, i will not reactivate my membership. i'm transferring it to my friend. :D
i have given up fitness first (or any other gym) altogether. even a free membership will not appeal to me anymore. i am convinced that i am not a gym person. i'll do some other form of exercise instead. i'd rather walk or jog a thousand miles than work out at the gym. but i would want to try boxing. i tried kickboxing when i was in grade school and it was pretty good. boxing will not only help me stay fit (as if naman fit ako ngayon :P), it'll do wonders in releasing any rage i might have. so don't come near me if i'm angry aight?
>><<
i'm making one of my dreams come true today. i'll be heading to the fort after shift to try out cold rock ice cream. :D
>><<
i need help with my comments link. i used the same code and everything, and i even tried using the wizard in haloscan but it's still not working.
paging my personal blog TS people... twin? deej? mistress ice? anyone? *beautiful eyes*
>><<
hi love. ;)
i'll see you this week?
*kisses*
==
Monday, October 10, 2005
OT galore. ice cream galore.
i've been working 8 days straight now. and i won't get a rest day until after 11 days. i've sacrificed my rest days to work overtime for a special project. i don't know why i agreed to render OT.
hindi sya nakakatuwa. :( my colleagues and i are regretting our decision to work 7x a week. what the hell were we thinking???
====
cold rock ice cream is now here in manila!!!! i remember seeing this on lifestyle network and i was really hoping that we would have it here too. i even wanted to make a business similar to it. :) hehe.
hmmm...they're not offering ice cream buffet (my ultimate ice cream dream), so i guess that's the kind of business i'll engage in. ;)
the moment that Promil Kid told me about cold rock being available here, i couldn't stop thinking about it. we've scheduled a trip to The Fort to pig out, but that won't be until next week. :( ang tagaaaaaaaaal! pwede bang mauna na nga ako dun? :P
just reading about their selections made me drool:
Macadamia, White Chocolate, Aussie Vanilla, Tia Maria, Butterscotch, Caramel, Banana, Strawberry, Boysenberry, Coffee, Cookies & Cream, Double Chocolate, Chocolate Chip, Choc Mint, Rum & Raisin, Cheesecake, English Toffee, Honeycomb,
Licorice, Tiramisu.
o diba? :) wla pang mix-ins yan! i can choose from the following: Mars, Snickers, Cherry Ripe, Bounty, Crunchie, M&M's, Milky Way, Gummi Bears, Maltesers, Tim Tams, Flake, Violet Crumble, Picnic, Caramello Koalas, Marshmallows, Nerds, Sour Lollies, Sherbert, Freckles, Fudge, Kit Kat, Oreo Biscuits, Rocky Road.
i'll go on a diet next year. :P
visit the most heavenly website and drool with me!
Promil Kid, kasalanan mo to. nde ako makakatulog talaga neto eh. :)
*photos (and my anxiety) courtesy of www.coldrock.com.au
==
i've been working 8 days straight now. and i won't get a rest day until after 11 days. i've sacrificed my rest days to work overtime for a special project. i don't know why i agreed to render OT.
hindi sya nakakatuwa. :( my colleagues and i are regretting our decision to work 7x a week. what the hell were we thinking???
====
cold rock ice cream is now here in manila!!!! i remember seeing this on lifestyle network and i was really hoping that we would have it here too. i even wanted to make a business similar to it. :) hehe.
hmmm...they're not offering ice cream buffet (my ultimate ice cream dream), so i guess that's the kind of business i'll engage in. ;)
the moment that Promil Kid told me about cold rock being available here, i couldn't stop thinking about it. we've scheduled a trip to The Fort to pig out, but that won't be until next week. :( ang tagaaaaaaaaal! pwede bang mauna na nga ako dun? :P
just reading about their selections made me drool:
Macadamia, White Chocolate, Aussie Vanilla, Tia Maria, Butterscotch, Caramel, Banana, Strawberry, Boysenberry, Coffee, Cookies & Cream, Double Chocolate, Chocolate Chip, Choc Mint, Rum & Raisin, Cheesecake, English Toffee, Honeycomb,
Licorice, Tiramisu.
o diba? :) wla pang mix-ins yan! i can choose from the following: Mars, Snickers, Cherry Ripe, Bounty, Crunchie, M&M's, Milky Way, Gummi Bears, Maltesers, Tim Tams, Flake, Violet Crumble, Picnic, Caramello Koalas, Marshmallows, Nerds, Sour Lollies, Sherbert, Freckles, Fudge, Kit Kat, Oreo Biscuits, Rocky Road.
i'll go on a diet next year. :P
visit the most heavenly website and drool with me!
Promil Kid, kasalanan mo to. nde ako makakatulog talaga neto eh. :)
*photos (and my anxiety) courtesy of www.coldrock.com.au
==
Friday, October 07, 2005
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
enrapture
it is when you walk away
that i let the taste
return to my lips
when you have freed
the spell and passion
that immoderately touched
every surface of me
when only the humming of the sheets
and the scent of your being
penetrate my senses
then, only then,
can i selfishly absorb you
until i, alone, possess you
-- jarjar.10.04.05 --
==
it is when you walk away
that i let the taste
return to my lips
when you have freed
the spell and passion
that immoderately touched
every surface of me
when only the humming of the sheets
and the scent of your being
penetrate my senses
then, only then,
can i selfishly absorb you
until i, alone, possess you
-- jarjar.10.04.05 --
==
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